Thinking. Is. Bad. Overthinking. Is. Worse.

That is the biggest problem with me. I always under think or over think.

Under thinking sucks because you're basically closing an eye to your problems, just ignoring them even if they're staring at you right in the face. Take my first ever relationship for example, there was this period of time when i was stressed because i was worrying too much. My close friends (thanks xing and jia lin da jie) advised me to just close one eye and trust my ex, which i did. sure, it felt good not worrying, but sooner or later, those worries will just build up, and you'll realise that they are not gone, just merely building up. and one day, when something goes wrong, it will blow up in your face like a whirlpool of shit.

What i have been doing recently is over think. worrying when there is nothing to worry about. Why? it is because, once again, of relationship issues, not that i am in one, of course. What i have been thinking about is whether my feelings for this special someone is a case of love or just strong feeling of friendship... just last night, i was chatting with her, and there was this one brief moment where i wanted to tell her strongly that i liked her. But at that moment, she threw a bomb with "I think i have a crush on someone else leh" before i had even said anything, so i hurriedly backspaced my message and had to be happy for her... For the rest of the night, i pondered about it and got a bad headache over it.

It was just this morning when i realised that just because she has a crush on someone doesn't mean anything, then i further reminded myself that i wasn't even sure i liked her yet... haha.. confusing, huh? of course, from a reader's point of view, it might be confusing, perhaps even amusing. To me, however, it is nothing more than a Shit Bomb. Being the logical person that i think i am, i don't like being made to feel confused.

Perhaps i should take my best friend's advice and return to my old self, that is to say, emotionless, heartless, just observing from the side... maybe... If i don't put my heart out there, i can't get hurt, right? ahaha.. i don't know =/ we'll see....

Quote of the day:
De inimico non loquaris sed cogites - Don't wish ill for your enemy; plan it