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background music is the legendary Billy(billie) Jean sang by michael jackson. After listening to it, i decided to go youtube some good old MJ songs.

I really wanted to put Smooth Criminal (my fave MJ song) as my blog song, but the video is 9 whole minutes long because of a lot of lengthy parts at the beginning, so i used this The Way You Make Me Feel duet of MJ and Britney Spears (before they both went nuts).

SO RETRO

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Hi, whoever is reading this. Yes its true, i have returned to blogging after... 2 years... I realise because of this that i seem to blog only when i have some big concern on my mind... =P

Oh wells, if you came looking for an update on my boring boring life, you have come to the absolute right place.

As i sit here in my classroom at 7:34am with only ah siong present with me, i can't help but wonder. Did i make the right choice last friday in ending it? My mind says yes, you did. By ending it, i was relieved of so much stress and burden however, my heart says NO. why? because there is this tiny little part in me that is still very much in love with her no matter what she may or may not have done. But yes, i decided to listen to my mind and several of my friends who advised me to move on. so that is what i am trying to do, move on, jie min, move!!!

The above text (in red) was my first ever post in pegasusjm.blogspot.com. I spent most of the night re-reading alot of my old posts, sadly, i'd forgotten my sec sch blog, so i lost alot of memories there. However, its nice to re-read what you've written sometimes and have a "omg, i really said/did that?" moment.

Looking at my first post now, i laugh at my innocence. My longing for my ex back then was the reason i started the blog and now i just find it ridiculous. Over this year, i've learnt that if someone doesn't want you or doesn't treasure you, then just leave. What's the point of staying and moping and thinking of that person?

I can now officially pronounce myself love-free.

2 weeks.

of peace. of serenity. of silence. of bliss.

At last... a break from the hellish sem 1.

While it wouldnt be wrong to say that relationships between the guys in class has improved (mostly due to CS), it would be wrong to say that i am an accepted member of the class.

Odd.

I went down to W4-6 food haven to eat today, and i saw this door with a notice pasted on it saying the door handle is faulty. i've seen this for several days but i really looked at it today.

The notice said Door handle faulty.

I read the notice, i looked at the door and i thought to myself "FAULTY?? Theres NO door handle left!!"

The holidays.

They are coming.

2 more shitty days. 2 weeks of peace. then 10+ weeks of death. then it ends.

Can i make it? Or will i be the second SIT suicide case in rp?

how much longer can this go on?

How much longer can i partial? avoid the class, avoid the lessons, avoid school? I don't know. I want to stay. i want to get educated, i want to have fun, just like in year 1. But it's so hard this year. There's nothing to stay for and everything just screams "LEAVE"

So friendless.

11 more weeks to go

You made it past week 5. You can do it. Ignore ur class, buckle up and get to work. come on.

Overcome the odds, the shitty odds.


SEMPER PARATUS!

So perfect, so worthless.

I hate my life as it is now. Really, i do. So much more than the "emo phase". I really do hate it.

people who know me knows that i dont like being at home if my parents are there. People who know me knows that i love coming to school to meet friends.

Now, it has mostly reversed. i would rather stay at home and face those detestful beasts that are my parents rather than stay in school and suffer in silence.

i feel like im going nuts, bit by bit.

Epic Boredom.

Desmond Ee, my faci for data communications and networking (c225) is epic. Epic in a boring way.

SO BORING that im blogging in class (rare phenomenon)

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The theory of partialism.

In Year 1, i only partialled for 3 reasons.

1) I felt that i could not contribute for the day's problem (because of mood or whatever)
2) The problem is too hard.
3) Alot of people partials as well. (I'm easily swayed by peer pressure sometimes.)

In year 2, i can add 1 new reason.

4) I don't fit in with the class.

I partialled on monday. I partialled on tuesday. And i partialled today. (thursday) thats 3 in a row. A hat trick.

A few posts ago, i mentioned that i had problems fitting in with the class, but that i'd give myself time. It has now been a month. In year 1 sem 1, by problem 4, i had solidified my position in the class and had a few close friends. In year 1 sem 2, i had more close friends than before.

In year 2, asides from my 2 classmates also from my y1s1 class, i can safely declare that no one else is close to me, or even considered "friend". We're just classmates.

In the past, i'd go home late everyday, hang out with friends, etc etc. Now, when we're dismissed, i go home straight.

Its not that i don't want to fit in with them, its just that the majority of them just doesnt allow me to. Most of them are clubbers ( i dont have a problem with clubbers.. but if all they talk about is clubbing... =/) or smokers ( i have a sensitive throat. Ask my sem 2 classmates)

And the guys are mostly too perverted. Not interested in talking to guys. They only talk to girls. and LOUDLY too. like barbarians.

Of course, there are about... 3 or 4 whom i would say are okay, but i havent teamed with them before so i don't really know them... meanwhile.. life is hell...

LOL

I couldnt watch this in class because i was supressing my laughter so bad.

PP

My PP adviser, Yap Woan Leng, sucks. Email her for help on wednesday. no reply. submitted my scope 4 days ago, still not reviewed. So if i screw it up, i only have 2 days to re-do it. and thats assuming she tells me now, which she hasnt.

Gallagher.

A semi biography and semi fiction story that im working on.

Lead character, Arthur Gallagher is the vision of me in the story.

Arthur comes from the latin word Artos, meaning bear, although i plucked the name from King Arthur.

Gallagher means "foreign help" in irish/gaelic.

Lead female (although im unsure if she will be in the story for long) is Iris. (no surname thought of yet.)

Iris means Rainbow in greek. It's also the name of a messenger goddess in greek mythos.

I told my faci before we started presenting. "faci, can you give me a fail grade today? because i didnt really contribute any work." and got called a hero.

I spent the whole day slacking.. barely glanced at the worksheet.. would have partialled, but no one wanted to partial with me.

Now got pp to worry abt somemore. sianz.

DAMN

feeling sick today. not going to school..



My god damned laptop is screwing up again. everytime i boot up, it'll crash within 5 minutes!

I can only play facebook games now on SAFE MODE!!!! no sound.. no cs... just restaurant city and mafia wars T_T

How am i doing in year 2?

So far, 1st week, i got 4 Bs.

2nd week, 1 B and 1 A, though i anticipate a D because of partial used.

There was once,

when i could not check my email for 3 weeks, because something happened to my internet connection. When that 3 weeks ended, i had 3 emails.


Tonight, i broke under social pressure and signed up for facebook. Within an hour, i had more than 30 emails. hm.