The Fear of School.

Its unbelievable. UNBELIVABLE how i am still in the shithole of SIT-DIT.

at this rate, i might as well have chosen ITE. It sounds way more fun than this crap im learning (or pretending to learn). I've so many F grades by now, its a miracle if i can recover to pass this sem.

People keep telling me "You need to stick thru the boredom and dread". Yeah, thanks, i didnt know thats what to do, o my life is clear now. Bullshit. of course i know i have to do that, im not THAT idiotic. When i partial, i know im putting myself deeper into shit. everytime i decide "screw this, i had enough for today" and slam my laptop shut, do people think that i dont know what im getting myself into? of course i know.

If i was a more mentally capable person, sure. i would've stuck thru my boredom. But im a naturally restless person. Add to that if something is not interesting, i lost interest so fast, its not even funny, and u have a recipe for disaster right there.

And so i changed my blog title from The Advent of the pegasus knight. to the Demise of the Pegasus. signifying my spiritual death in this place.

Its sunday night. school tomorrow. The vicious circle continues.