Believe.

Sometimes, my good friends ask me, "Why, jm, why do u go out of your way to help people even if you won't get anything in return?"

The answer, while it might seem foolish to some, to me is "It is because i believe that someday, these small actions of mine have the potential to change the world."

My motto in life has been "To change the world, one individual at a time." since as long as i can remember and to me it is very much the guiding line for my life. That motto was what made my ambition to become a teacher still alive today. I want to be a teacher, because i like the feeling knowing that i can make a difference in those little children's life, hoping that someday, they can go on to become the outstanding citizens that i have failed to become.

How, some might ask, can doing some small things affect so many people?

I gave my friend, joyce, an example today. Somedays, joyce will ask me to buy a bottle of 100plus for her, and i always do that, even if it means the extra trouble of lugging my heavy ass from the class to 7-11 again. But i do it, because it is my belief that if i buy that bottle of 100plus for her, she will start her day slightly happier and less troubled. This will then permeate through her to people around her in class, she might think "hey, since im in a good mood, let's help so-and-so do so-and-so" which might then proceed on to be a chain effect and make alot of people happier.

Yes, sometimes, i do get tired of giving and would like to receive once in a while, but at the end of the day, i still believe that i am doing the right thing.


Joyce, like me, has a motto in life, which is somewhat opposite to mine.
"If you are everything to everybody, You ended up being nothing to yourself"
That is what i feel sometimes when im sick of giving...
But then, i remember that for me, the act of giving, or caring for people IS being something to myself...

This happens to me even in gaming. I used to play a game called Fiesta Online. and in that game, i was a warrior, a kind of kill-bash character. One day, as i was fighting by myself, this high-level cleric came by and blessed me, giving me 4 times more health for an hour. It was a simple act which required less than a few seconds. But for me, i was so inspired by that act of random kindness that i deleted my warrior and created a cleric as well. I trained hard for a full month (the longest i spent on any MMORPG) before finally achieving the level required to cast that very same blessing. All around me, my friends were training hard and they out-leveled me, simply because of the fact that once i had that spell, training was no longer important to me. I would wander around noob areas, blessing random noobs. I might not get thanked 100% of the time, but deep down, i still feel glad i do it, because i know, i made a difference.

I know that i, as one mere teenager, cannot do enough to change the world in a lifetime, maybe even ten. But for me, that is no reason to be discouraged. I can still try my best.