The Almost Holidays Paradox

Holidays are right around the corner!

Here's what i have planned.

1)WoW
2)FM2010
3)Silent Hill1
4) Silent hill 2
5) silent hill3
6)silent hill 4
7)brush up video editing skill..


Suddenly became very interested in silent hill's storyline. very intriguing.

The Room Paradox

Just changed my blog song to Room of Angel, the OST from Silent Hill 4: The Room. I don't know why, listening to it makes me feel really... well, i don't know how to describe it, really.. but it just feels abit magical yet sad.. Here's the lyrics, listen closely and try to feel it.

Room Of Angel By Akira Yamaoka

You lie silent there before me
Your tears may mean nothing to me now
The wind howling at the window
The Love you never gave
I give to you

Really don't deserve it
But now there's nothing you can do
So sleep in your only memory of me
My dearest mother

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
It was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry (oh well)
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
Goodbye...
Goodbye...

So insignificant
Sleeping dormant deep inside of me
Are you hiding away lost
Under the sewers
Maybe flying high in the clouds

Perhaps you're happy without me
So many seeds have been sown in the field
And who could sprout up so blessedly
If I had died

I would have never felt sad at all
You will not hear me say I'm sorry
Where is the light
I wonder if it's weeping somewhere

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
It was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry (oh well)
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes (goodbye)
Goodbye...
Goodbye...

The Flair Paradox

In soccer, there is a certain kind of players that i like to watch, the Flair players, players with lots of tricks and agility (its why i cannot tahan Rooney.)

asides from the usual messi, ronaldinho, ronaldo, etc, here are some of my favourite lesser known flair players.

1. Jesus Navas from Sevilla FC, Right Winger


2. Sergio Aguero from At. Madrid, Striker


3. Luka Modric from Tottenham, Left/Central Midfielder


4. Mikel Arteta from Everton, Winger


5. David Silva from Valencia, Winger


6. Hatem Ben Arfa from Marseille, Midfielder

The Solo Diner Paradox

I've become used to eating alone during dinner or weekends...

It's part and parcel of life for me.. =)

nothing else i can do about it.

Recently, i've actually come to terms with being single for the rest of my life.

I turn 19, with a barely-counted 1 week long relationship.

There is nothing about me that will possibly appeal to girls, unless they're gamers too -.-

The fearsome Paradox

I have something that both interests me very deeply, but scares me to the bottom of my soul...

When i watch tv shows about it, i can almost forget to breathe because i'm so engrossed with it, but when i think about going face to face with it, a shudder runs down my spine.

I am talking about Deep Sea Creatures, and i mean REALLY deep, till everything is black... It's almost like another planet down there in the abyss...

The Passion To Paradox

What is passion?

Encarta defines it as an Intense emotion while dictionary.com defines it as any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling.

I can tell you that there is no passion in my life. There is nothing compelling me to wake up anymore. I wake up and go to school and what do i learn? Java and PHP. and when my facis tell me i need these 2 for my FYP next year, i KNOW i am going to fail. (and dont give me that "jie min, ure so pessimistic" bullcrap)

It's just become so frustrating. It's come to the point where i even stopped enjoying playing CS! i went from second top frag in w45H to last frag in class! I've lost the passion to CS!

It's just so tiring not being passionate for anything.

I so hope that JAW will be the bit of passion that i crave.

The Old Foreign Lady Paradox

Thanks to a stupid car parked at the bus stop, my usually impecable sense of where the bus is going to stop(refer to many posts ago) was disrupted. as a result, i could only get a seat on the 4-seater section of the bus.

Sitting opposite of me was this old foreign lady, european by the looks of it. i sat down, plugged my ipod in and started staring out the window as usual.

After about 10 minutes, as Bon Jovi's Dead or Alive started to play, the old lady tapped me on the wrist. I looked over at her and took out one earphone and cocked my head to signify "whats up?"

the old lady said in what sounded like a dutch accent "you have sad eyes, boy."

i didnt know what to say to that so i smiled politely and nodded.

she leant closer to me and said "eyes can tell a lifetime worth of stories"

i still did not know what to say so i continued smiling at her.

"your eyes tells me you resent life. you don't know what you are doing, you feel like you are just wandering around, clueless about what you are meant to do with your life."

I stared at her, bingo. she was right.

"um, okay..." was what i could come up with.

and that was the end of it.. how very weird