Fear and 2 skins.

I'm feeling just a little frightened at the moment, dunno why.. not really looking forward to the prospect of school suddenly.

feeling uncharacteristically nervous.


To my dear poly friends, u need to know that i wasn't always the guy that u know now. In fact, i might even say, with the exception of one or two of you, none of you really ever knew the true jie min. The true jie min is quiet, anti-social to most people.

However, it was awesome slipping into this new skin, because i discovered sides of me that i never knew could exist. Years ago, if u had told me that i would have the guts to ask a girl out (sem 2), i would've laughed in ur face and called u insane. If you had told me that i would be able to stand up in front of a class and present so comfortably that i lost my nervous stuttering, i would've suggested you get ur brain checked.

years ago, back in secondary school, i was a recluse, a hermit, an outcast of the class with a few others. this few others were outcasts like me too. On the day that we got our o levels results, me and my bestie, kenneth, we gathered together and we made a pact, a promise, an oath.

We swore that never again would we be lonely. Never again would we be outcasts. Both of us have succeeded in our own ways, me on a class level and kenneth on a cohort level..

I feel that somehow, this unexpected nervousness and fear is part of the old me acting up again..
And i honestly do not want that. i like the new me, even if sometimes when im not in the mood, i have to put on a mask and be the new me.


There is also a smal fear inside me because i fear that one day i might get a class that sucks...



Alright. Time to pack up the laptop.