I'm sick of it. I thought luck and chance was like a 50-50 kinda thing? Why is it that when it comes to my turn, luck and chance seems to go 99-1 against me? I am so sick of it.

I always do the wrong move at the wrong time. When im supposed to be serious (aka presentation time), i screw it up. When i'm supposed to mess up, i get too serious!

I always say things without thinking, resulting in disastrous consequences.

Even when i admitted to the girl of my dreams my feelings for her, i did so without thinking. Did i think about my chances? Did i think if she would like me? No. I just blurted it out like a god damned moron.

William and I had a good talk today which made me realise that maybe im not alone in my misfortune. Thank you, bro.

And sean, bro, if ure reading this, i really envy you, man. Not everyone can be so loved. Have a good wedding, pal.