The Jan Paradox

I've started playing WoW last May... I came very close to quitting around november... But then I discovered the Roleplaying server Sister of Elune. Roleplaying server is basically a server where you act out what you are doing, so for example, I'm a blood elf priest, So i cannot say things like "I went to republic poly today and studied coding" Because there is no republic poly in Azeroth. It's actually a very immersive world, where many can live out the world they want... You can make a living as a bartender... a performer, etc etc...

I met someone called Jan on my first day there. She taught me how to roleplay etc etc. Over the months, we grew very very VERY close.. even closer than some real life friends. We shared some real life problems we have... And she's had a very sad life.. Trust me on this...

On monday, I came home after skipping java, and i got an MSN from Daniel (Not the W64A one, but another guy Jan and I knows from the game) He sent me an offline message Jan had sent him. According to that message, Jan was feeling VERY upset that day and was attempting suicide as we spoke. I was desperate. I contacted Desh, a close friend of ours from the game as well to call her. There was no response.

It's been 2 days and there has been no word from Jan... And she's usually online everyday. I genuinely hope from the bottom of my heart that she did not attempt anything silly...