AWOL

the reason i have been AWOL from blogging for so long, is simply because i have nothing to blog about.

Everyone knows i usually dont like the holidays and crave going back to school to see my friends. But this time, im dreading to go back to school as well, its like getting caught between a rock and a hard place, where neither situation actually makes me happier.

Life for me has been on a gradual decline. My best mates are moving on in the world. Poly friends settling with their new class, sec sch friends finding their feet in the real world. Me? I'm still stuck in childhood. No real life experience, so to speak.

While people are out there in america, trying to analyze the market to see how they can help, im here sitting in my chair analyzing the auction house in world of warcraft to see how i can make a quick buck.

While others are out working for money, im here spending money.

And i know some of you are thinking "whats so difficult? just go out and find a job." But the truth is that, i cant handle going out. I dread this.... hideousness that is me setting foot in the world. I always try my best to please everyone but usually end up making people dislike me. Its almost as if nothing i do is right anymore.