The noise paradox.

For how my holiday has been, refer to previous holiday-related posts.


today, i'm talking about my dad. EVERYDAY when he comes home, i will have to withstand at least 30 mins of straight nagging. either about how i'm always on the computer or how i don't exercise enough. I tell you this, if not for the fact that it is mandatory to pay your parents money when you start earning some, i swear to god i will not pay a single cent. And i'm an atheist, so you know im serious when i start swearing to something that i don't believe in.

I consider myself a peaceful person, but alot of times, i take joy in imagining myself stabbing that asshole over and over again until the walls are streaked with blood.

My brother is also another victim of my father's nagging. but he escapes by going out with friends alot and only coming back when my father is asleep.. i shall have to try that someday.

The Deportation Paradox

I had my first tuition session yesterday with this boy from china, Huang Jia Yao. He's a bright little kid, pretty pleasant to teach. He was good in maths, actually, it just that his lack of understanding of English brought him down alot. His aunt was very annoying, constantly barging in to check up how we were doing. seriously, 12 times in 1 and a half hours.

Today after the UT, i headed over to his home again for the second session of the week. He was much more mischeivious for the day, through the whole lesson i only managed to teach him the words "Sugar" and "energy" for his spelling. Towards the end, his aunt started to scold him and told me about a story which is the reason for my duress right now.

Jia Yao has failed Primary four twice. If he fails one more time, his entire family will be deported back to china. Being his current tutor, i feel like the burden is on my shoulders, and it is not a good weight to bear. I am accustomed to weights like "passing the semester" not "the fate of the whole family"

His aunt asked me if i was confident of raising his english to a primary four standard in 2 months, and i told her very honestly "Auntie, my english got to where it is through many years of reading. I simply cannot imagine how he will be able to do it in just two months."

So far, we have not scheduled a date for next week's lessons, and im honestly not sure if there will be more after my reply.. But me, having lived in my cocooned world of online games, i can safely say i have caught a glimpse of the cruel world out there, and am currently bearing a tiny portion of it on my shoulders.

The Tutor Paradox.

Months of waiting.

I've finally gotten a call from the tuition agency (thanks, man li) that has a job for me. P4 English and maths for a 13 year old china kid.

How will my westernised language be able to communicate with his mandarin?? The clash of english and chinese!

Hope it goes well. I'm nervous and psyched at the same time.

I wonder how it will go when it comes the end of the month and i get my pay.. cuz im really not the kinda person to go up to people i barely know and say "um, u owe me $150".. We'll see ba.. see if i can last the month or not, lol..

The agency lady even told me that the mother asked me to be forceful with him, lol.. must be pai kia sia...

It doesnt help that UT3 is approaching and ive barely scraped the surface on my revision.

The School Paradox

School's almost ending... UTs coming... Gotta start studying... starting from tomorrow, i will be in school late every night studying... who else is interested can msn me.

The Private Paradox.

The Ghostly Paradox

I stepped out of my house today at roughly 6:45am. I looked straight at the other end of the corridor into my neighbour's house. I saw a toddler running past the door from right to left and it totally spooked me out.

1) there is no "right side" of the door. its just a wall and outside of the block.

2)my neighbours only have 2 kids. one sec 2 the other primary 6.

kinda a good way to make sure that i woke up clearly.

The Tuition Paradox

Spent tuesday after-school with my bestest friend and we had an awesome long talk... Very therapeutic... Gave me a fresh new perspective on many of my issues, and i tried to give her the guy's point of view on some issues as well.

It is now week 14 of school, almost at the end of this semester... I genuinely hope 1) i pass this semester 2) i get a better class next semester.

Tuition agency finally called me today.. but offered me lower sec math and science. would've accepted but its at 3pm on weekdays, so i cant take it =/